Post by French Pony on Jan 19, 2005 20:47:02 GMT -5
I'm sorry. You've probably got better things to do than sit and listen to me complain. But I'm an unhappy Pony tonight, and I thought maybe if I told someone, it might make me feel a little better.
It's not even like I have a good reason to be unhappy. School's started up again, and three of my classes are fun classes that I like (I'm guessing; I haven't had one of them yet), and one is a requirement that I won't ever have to do again. And I suppose every grad student is supposed to have moments of dramatic angstiness, and just suck it up and deal. And I really want to like my Ethno-bibliography professor, but being in her class makes me feel terribly illiterate and like a fraud who sneaked in the back door when the professors weren't looking. And I know the other students probably feel the same way, but that doesn't help.
And gamelan was supposed to be fun, and I was looking forward to it, and then somehow it wasn't fun and I might have to give up going home for Passover to play in the concert in April (or I might not -- it all depends on my family).
And maybe I'm just unhappy because vacation is over, poor spoiled me. And the weather's warmed up to freezing now, so that's a good thing. I don't understand how a day that starts out happy can end so unhappy when there wasn't anything specific to cause it.
Oh well. Maybe I should just suck up and deal. I should go make dinner now, I guess. I'm sorry. I'll be quiet now.
It's not even like I have a good reason to be unhappy. School's started up again, and three of my classes are fun classes that I like (I'm guessing; I haven't had one of them yet), and one is a requirement that I won't ever have to do again. And I suppose every grad student is supposed to have moments of dramatic angstiness, and just suck it up and deal. And I really want to like my Ethno-bibliography professor, but being in her class makes me feel terribly illiterate and like a fraud who sneaked in the back door when the professors weren't looking. And I know the other students probably feel the same way, but that doesn't help.
And gamelan was supposed to be fun, and I was looking forward to it, and then somehow it wasn't fun and I might have to give up going home for Passover to play in the concert in April (or I might not -- it all depends on my family).
And maybe I'm just unhappy because vacation is over, poor spoiled me. And the weather's warmed up to freezing now, so that's a good thing. I don't understand how a day that starts out happy can end so unhappy when there wasn't anything specific to cause it.
Oh well. Maybe I should just suck up and deal. I should go make dinner now, I guess. I'm sorry. I'll be quiet now.
and another for later. 
